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38上 老农民逛街生险象 小说家写作焦如火

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今天是八月十二日星期一,农历七月十二号——己亥年壬申月辛巳日。今日宜嫁娶、订盟、纳采、作灶、冠笄;忌掘井、出行、破土、行丧、安葬……早上六点,老马捧着日历喃喃半晌。</p>

准备抽水烟时发现打火机没气了,老头起身去房间的床头柜里找备用打火机。到房间后仔仔还在睡觉,他轻轻坐在床前,一层一层拉开床前柜的抽屉。谁成想打火机没找着,倒找到了老大哥的那块旧手表。</p>

打开一层一层的旧报纸,老马看到了一块金黄泛旧的机械表,秒针滴答滴答地还在走,那表上的时间和自己左手表上的时间一样一样的,只可惜表的主人不在了。老马捧着旧报纸,盯着那表上滴答滴答的秒针,想起那天葬礼上的可笑可憎,回首袁铁生三十年前的豪爽英姿,心里泛酸。</p>

找到打火机以后,老头重新一层一层地包好那块表,小心翼翼地放在最底下的抽屉里。老人拖着忧伤背影凄凉地挪步到阳台上,又听起了秦腔《葫芦峪》。</p>

“在黄龙宝帐摆宴场,猛然想起了关二王。”</p>

“关兴儿不必哭牺惶,听皇伯把话说心上。”</p>

“不记得儿父在世上,哪一个不晓荆州王。”</p>

“颜良文丑皆被他丧,举宝刀吓坏徐仲康。”</p>

“出五关连斩六员将,古城壕边又斩蔡阳。”</p>

“酒尚温斩过华雄将,把他的威名天下扬。”</p>

“保皇伯西川把业创,那时封他为荆州王。”</p>

……</p>

一沉进戏里,好些时光又过去了,再回神时,仔仔上学走了,桂英上班去了,连致远出门买早餐老马也没觉察。老头长叹一口气,关了戏曲,去客厅喝水。忽想起一桩事,他赶紧给女婿打电话。</p>

“喂?爸,怎么了?”拎着早餐刚回到小区的致远拨通电话问。</p>

“远啊,你没回来的话给我捎瓶酒——西凤酒,其他的别乱买,就买西凤酒!”老马愁云一脸。</p>

“你早上要喝吗?”致远犹疑。</p>

“嗯!早上喝!我在家就是早上喝!好几天没喝了,嘴里受不了了,你赶紧去买吧!”老马左手的四指指腹搓着桌子。</p>

“哦,好好!”致远挂了电话,一看还不到九点。对面大商场的大超市里他见过有西凤酒,可超市九点才开门。他心里着急,提着好些早点转身直奔大超市去了。</p>

早饭后,漾漾在客厅里溜车,老马在餐厅里嘬酒喝,致远收拾完餐桌,回到了房间。此时已经十点五十了。致远打开笔记本,心里焦躁难安。</p>

他清晨六点起来,工作了一个小时,七点二十的时候仔仔跑来说他那双球鞋坏了要修,还抱怨他的计算机坏了没法上数学课。桂英忙着收拾上班根本不理睬儿子,仔仔只得一会拎着鞋一会捧着旧计算机来找他,几次被打断以后,致远再也无法静心了。送走儿子和妻子以后,他去买早餐,后又买酒,吃完早餐收拾桌子……起床后的五个小时里,他只工作了一个小时。数一数一个人的一天中,有几个五个小时?何致远沉重地叹气。</p>

当一个人顶着巨大的压力、挤出珍贵的时间来做一件无比重要的事情时,频频被打断,这是一种怎样的处境和心情?</p>

他视为比自己还重要的事业总是被鸡毛蒜皮的现实生活打断,心中的焦炙和暴躁可想而知。可是仔仔又没有错,孩子的生活出现状况时他们天然地求助父母;桂英也没有错,一个女人养家糊口尚且吃力,哪还有闲心管孩子呢;老丈人也没有错,老人心情不好住得不管,让女婿买瓶酒喝再正常不过了;漾漾更没有错,小孩每天一到九点就饿了,吃不到饭就哼哼着哭……</p>

致远捏着笔,身体绷得僵硬,心中却十万火急。现在——此时此刻,他已经可以工作了,他彻底闲下来了,可是半个小时以后他又要准备午饭了。这么几十分钟的时间他能写些什么好东西呢!</p>

这不是他第一次面对自己这夹缝中的现实与梦想了。长久的焦虑让他更加焦虑,中年人无所适从,桌下的两腿激烈地晃动——一直在晃动,停不下来。他关了电脑,躺在床上,看着天花板,只见那天花板上泛着雨水。</p>

人到中年上有老下有小,属于自己的时间和空间本就少得可怜,何况还要开辟另一番天地——为枯燥卑微的生活寻找另一种生机——谈何容易!谈何容易!所有为梦想敢于放弃世俗生活的人,无一不是勇敢的、炽热的、可贵的!人之所以为人,是因为敢于突破平凡和常规,敢于创造群体的奇迹,敢于丰富并拓宽人类的维度。</p>

老马微醉了,又躺在摇椅上听戏。忽然电话来了,老头隔远了一瞅,是钟能打来的。</p>

“喂?老村长?”钟能在电话那头喊。</p>

“嗯,钟能啊!咋了?”老马在这头问。</p>

“么事,问问你!你女子说你要回去了,是不?”钟能开门见山地问。</p>

“嗯,是!下一星期到香港耍一圈,收拾收拾就回咧!”两个老农民用一口纯正的秦西方言对话——那方言缓慢、笨重,语中充满了那地方的土木水火之气息。</p>

“咋不待了?”</p>

“哎!这这儿也么啥意思,屋里果园活多,我等不得!还是待在咱屋里滋润!”</p>

“你脚不是没好么?”</p>

“快好了!没好也走!”老马拍着大腿面儿,十分果决。</p>

“哎,我还舍不得你!刚来了可要走!”钟能嗔怪。</p>

“这儿真么啥意思!”</p>

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